I have about 100 rules. These rules vary from keeping myself on task, keeping the house organized and keeping the kids in line. Today, as I sit awake at 1:30am, I realize most of these rules are arbitrary. Tonight I've broken about 5 rules (give or take), and you know what, I don't feel bad … Continue reading So many rules
You know those signs they sell that say: "Please excuse our messy house we are busy making memories" You will never find that sign in my home. Just the mere presence of that sign makes me anxious. I must also add: I wish I could be the person who owns and displays that sign. I … Continue reading The Mess
Text messages I received from the nanny today: "S just chest bumped A onto the ground and yelled 'You need to listen' then put her foot on the back of A's knee to make it buckle.... what in the hell is this kid doing" "A just pulled out a chunk of S's hair. Things are … Continue reading Who wants a time out?
Today, I'm 0 for 3. I was present for zero meals with my girls. The sitter made breakfast, lunch and dinner. I did not get to ask them how they slept, how school was, or how they napped. I had minimal interaction with the girls today. This led me to ask myself the dreaded question: … Continue reading Oh for three
I know the idea of being bullied is a very serious matter, but the the title of this blog stands. My Kids Bully Me. Today, I came home from work and my girls were outside playing with the sitter. I had a long day and was exhausted but was suddenly energized as I saw them. … Continue reading My Kids Bully Me
Change. I hate change. I have anxiety when it comes to change. Change means moving on from the regular, the normal, the comfortable and embarking on the scary unknown. I have learned to deal with change over the last few years. To cope, I have had to learn to trust myself. To trust that I … Continue reading Change
Did you ever think you would care so much about poop? I work in geriatrics, yet I clearly missed all of the warning signs that my life would be defined by poop. I thought, maybe when I get older I will understand how pooping (or not pooping) will affect my day, but never did I … Continue reading Poop